Thursday, July 7, 2011
Ramblings of a Sleepless Mother
It's 2:30 in the morning and I am up yet again, I can't fall asleep after feeding Noa and putting him back down. He's 5 months old and at 4 months he slept from 7:30 to anywhere between 4 and 5 in the morning with a midnight dream feed, which was pretty good if you ask me and he had been sleeping like that from about 2 and 1/2 to 3 months, but I have no clue what his deal is now. For the last two weeks he's been getting up every two hours and eating anywhere from 4- 6 ounces each time and I am so utterly exhausted. I tank him up before bed and it's no help, he's even started to eat rice cereal but the boy still gets up every 2 hours for more. I am so tired right now that I can't sleep, I know it sounds crazy but I just lay in bed getting more and more frustrated at the fact that I can't drift back into sleep. So here I am writing to get my frustrations off my chest in the hope that I will be able to sleep for at least an hour before I am awaken again by Noa at 4 ....most likely. I have not had more than two hours of consecutive sleep for way too long and I have never been the best sleeper and the more tired I get the harder it is for me to sleep. I am surprised I am even functioning, will this ever end? I am sure you all are thinking well he needs to nap more, but honestly his napping is alright... besides the fact that he refuses to sleep longer than an hour in the daytime out of my arms. So as long as I hold him he takes some pretty good naps. I just wish I could figure out the magic way to get him to sleep better, so that I can sleep better. I get mad that Chris can drift into sleep so effortlessly and I can't. Noa even sleeps well, he just gets up to feed and then goes right back down....but not me. I can't wait until he this growth spurt from hell ends and I get my Noa back. I just hope that ends really soon, because I am just so exhausted. I think the lack of sleep is starting to really get to me.